every moment and every breath

every moment and every breath i am afraid and i am insecure and i am lost and i am far away and i am terrified and i am confused and i am sad i am so fucking sad and i am angry and i am hurt and i am in pain and i am different and this is different and i don't know what to do and i don't know why anything is the way it is and i don't know why i am here and i am nothing and i am small and i am weak

but every moment and every breath i smile and i laugh and i dance and i sing and i laugh and i stretch my fingertips towards the sun because it is beautiful and it is warm and it is strong and i am beautiful and i am warm and i am strong and i am everything and i am enough and i am all i will ever fucking need

DW